20.07.2025 – 1808

What? It’s Christmas.

This time is for family. Did you expect me to fuck about on this website all month?

Stop reading this and go see someone. Maybe call them, SMS, smoke signal, post a letter or something.

If you don’t know what to talk about, maybe think about the things that keep you up at night or get you up too early.

This isn’t just my story.

Be present.

30.07.2025 – 2217

And just like that, Christmas is almost over. No presents this month, but that’s not really what this is all about is it?

It’s not even the real Christmas… it’s still only July.

What is the real Christmas though? I could sit here and write a bunch of crap and stall for another 5 months. I could make some more pretty renders talking on process and the senses, maybe a few more Gaussian Splats! That was a fun month wasn’t it? Do we go back to March maybe? That definitely had some promise in it.

I have spent so long trying to find rhythm in the creation of these monthly ‘projects’ trying to demonstrate creative process using something that simply cannot be demonstrated if planned.

Chaos.

I have reached a crossroad. Kind of like at the beginning of this story when I started to document my light as opposed to trying to explain light in general. (This was in February for anyone still paying attention)

Do I need to do the same with Chaos?

How do I even show my Chaos?

Or am I showing it already?

And I mentioned that this isn’t just my story now, so how can I get you to find or show yours too?

Shit… and I thought losing colour, light and time were a problem. How do we get out of this one?

More to come in Christmas Part II… wait there’s a Christmas Part II ??

31.10.2025 – 2311

How many times do I have to tell you it’s “Khaos” and honey, you hit the nail on the head. You can’t show it. If you try to then it aint me, it’s just a mess.

It’s working though, you have sparked my interest and I have started to see the rhythm of your mission. Merry Christmas

I’m a bit hungry, we should eat something first…